Heart Of Worship (HOW)

i'm stuck in camp with 7 working left to my pink I/C and a lot of things going through my mind right now.

Firstly is my future after army. It may seems like i've planned out my future already, having a course in NTU chemistry and biological chemistry, having a part time job of giving tuition (at this moment) and also maybe working at trumpet praise (if daisy manage to help me). I'm really not sure whether i truly want to go into this course but since I've chosen this course, i believe that God also would want me to go thru this course well. Like i keep saying, Jer 29:11 (For i know the plans i have for you declares the Lord, plans to give u a hope and a future). Since i believe this is his plan to give me a hope and a future, i'm going to work hard!

Second thing on my mind is my ex-girlfriend. Been talking to her more often recently. I remembered reading love doesn't die after a relationship ended, it become more of a love lost but still there. I thought the embers have died down but i guess it was only simmering. I'm struggling with jealousy (first time for me cos i dun really get jealous, only when Sly get more char siew pau than me). She shared with me that she is in a more intimate relationship with her current boyfriend compared to me but also she is more emotionally attached to him. As a friend, i try to be there for her but i just can't help by being jealous of him. It's like here u have a wonderful girl as your girlfriend but you don't treasure her. Jealous of him cos he share a deeper intimacy with her. (hey i have never french kiss a girl before okay... but ya she french kiss him sianx). Kinda weird cos it's like after the God and sexuality talk and ya i'm already having more problems than before the talk.. maybe it's because i'm more aware what is at stake? Like i put on my msn pm, girls are nothing but trouble, guys still fall for them anyway.. The law of attraction existed even before newton form his law of gravitation.

Thirdly is Lent. I swear Sylvester know me too well, say for me for my sacrifice for lent is to give up pork. THE SACRED MEAT!!!!! i wonder whether i can survive 40 days without pork.. i think sure can but have temptations and craving for pork.. Meaning no more ikea meatballs... :( But ya i was thinking of doing a something different this Lent.. thinking of going for weekday mass like at least once a week, more if i can. also for fridays maybe wanna eat only bread and fruits? dunno still considering. Also thinking of doing a fornightly thank you Lord for this scenery and posting up on either this blog or the Mover (Amp Environment) Blog. Thinking of making it like a monthly thing after Lent too. So much to give thanks to God for.

Fourthly, thinking of the direction that we the happy 7 people should take. Meetings are almost non-existant but i believe (dunno whether my faith is misplaced) that we are still keeping in touch with one another somehow. I know for a fact that Kenji and Petrina are keeping in contact with one another due to Kenji's obsession of selling insurance. Also Sylvester, Auntie Rachel have been going for Amplify Fridays every week. I know Rachel Lim goes for some Amplify fridays and 6pm mass with me and Sylvester. John, as we all know have just started on his national service liability to the nation and it's going to be tough for him.
Let us keep one another in our prayers k?

Got plenty more but i guess this is long enough.

oh ya HAPPY 7 PEOPLE MEETING ON 14TH MARCH 2009 MOST LIKELY EVENING TO NIGHT.
5PM TILL LATE (ACTUALLY TILL WHAT TIME DINNER END OR SLIGHTLY LATER THAN THAT)
KEEP YOURSELVES FREE!!!!! EARLY WARNING GIVEN

Wanna share with you this song. I think all of you should be familiar with it.
Heart of worship
Was reflecting on its words
When the music fades
all is strip away
and i simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
that will bless your heart
I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself is not what is required
You search much deeper within
Thru the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

i feel that it's not about the gifts that we can offer for he is not looking for just our songs but rather the state of our hearts for he search much deeper within, whether we are going back to Him.